Lately I've been a little discouraged over some technical issues I've been experiencing with my computer. I've talked with Dell a number of times and a technician has even been out to work on it. Still I'm having problems, and their only solution now is for me to send it back to them to be fixed. I've been reluctant to do this, saying, "I can't do without my computer! I rely on it so much. I need it for my job hunt!"
Now the problems are to the point where I am going to have to send it back to Dell. As I was preparing to pack it up, I realized this is another instance of how I must sacrifice something in my life for God. I must give up my reliance on my computer and trust that I only need God for my job search. I've filled out the applications; sent out resumes; checked the websites EVERY DAY. I've done my part . . . I've carried my burden. Now I must put complete faith and trust in Him, and wait for Him to reveal His will for me.
I know it seems silly, thinking that my computer being broken is some "sign" from God about changes that need to be made in my life. And although I know he didn't cause my computer to malfunction, I'm using this incident to continue to evaluate my life and search the places where I'm not submitting to God and giving Him full reign. I told Andrew its like He is pulling back layers of me at a time showing me where I'm putting an addictive beverage, or an inanimate object, or, as it really boils down to, my own will above Him.
So, I hope to see Jehovah Jireh in my life again soon. Again, the sacrifice of my computer is only a symbol of the greater sacrifice I'm making with my life. I am truly trying every day to submit to Him. Now the downside is I may not be able to blog on the name I've chosen for about 10 days. But I have chosen: Elohim.
